College Experience

There isn't much I can say about my experiences so far about coming to college for students coming here from high school next year. To me high school didn't prepare you enough, the teachers let you get away with too much, like assignments being handed in weeks late, and being graded too easy. In college, missing too many days gets you kicked out of a class you just spent a few hundred on to go to for two or three months. In high school, if you get kicked out, at least you can come back a few days later or just repeat the year again next year for free ( unless attending a school other then public ). In college there is more self responsibility. Your parents and teachers don't bug you to get your work handed in, you need to act upon it yourself and ask questions about your grades yourself. There is no principal there "to keep you in line." Basically in coming freshman need to become more responsible of their own work, and become a little more aware of life and succeeding on their own without someones hand their to guide them along the way.

Random quote I happened to come across..

"We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy." -Walter Anderson.

I'm not going to say I know exactly what he is implying by this quote, but I know if I had to draw my own meaning from it, I would apply it to myself in this manner: I would say from my own experiences, that the times I've whole-heartedly put myself out there and gave all my trust to someone, that over the course of time, trust that has been built up between two people can be taken advantage of and taken for granted while slowly being torn a part in minutes; taking a lifetime to repair ( or so it seems that way). I totally agree with the second part as well. I've come to realize that those I can't trust, our relationship seems to be at a hault, making it ultimately impossible to learn to love or be happy with them. So I guess what I want to get out of this, is the possibility to ever go back to a level of trust you had with someone from the start.

Christmas Shopping..

I have about 3 weeks left before Christmas, and I feel like I have got nothing accomplished. I must have been to the mall everyday these past two weeks since black friday thinking that I might possibly leave with a gift for someone. I think my parents are the hardest to shop for. Not so much my mother, but my father, I don't even know what to think about getting for him. What do fathers like ? Golf balls, picture frames, a Rolex watch maybe ? Friends are easy, even if it means picking out something YOU would like for christmas and giving it to them. It might work out that way because we are friends with people who like the same things we do right ? Nieces and nephews, since mine are all still very young, a barbie doll or wii game will do the trick. For now, I must manage my money and even it out to make sure I don't go broke before I'm done buying for everyone I need to.

Restricted Calls.. ?

So I'm sitting here trying to figure out what to write about for this blog. I even asked one of my friends to give me a random topic. She said to write about respect, which quite frankly I think I could write a good amount about. It's about 10:30pm and like always I receive a "restricted call" on my cell phone. For a while now this has been going on. Whoever it is, they persistently call me at all hours of the day and night and I'm tired of it. Speaking of respect, this person has none. I don't know why it gets me so angry, but for someone to have the nerve to call me from a blocked number and not say anything is pretty immature on their part. These are the things we did in middle school, and I highly doubt someone from that age group is pranking me.
So what I would like to do is trace the call. What I need to know is if it is possible, and where to get information on how to do it, in reguards to costs and stuff like that. I hope to find out who they are, and make them feel like an idiot for doing it becuase what goes around comes around, even if I'm stuck paying a sum of money for it.

Bad Friendships..

I've broken up with a bad friend lately as well. It's funny how some of us spend every waking moment till the time we go to bed with the same person everyday. Before you know it you start finishing each others sentences in odd ways, and saying the same phrases. Yet, I knew it was impossible to become so close with a person in such a short period of time, because she was fake. I'm not going to lie, but this girl was a complete idiot with no friends and I finally realized why. Throughout our entire friendship she would talk bad about me behind my back to anyone she could start a conversation with, including people at the job we went to together. I'm not one to get involved in drama, or even care for that matter, but it's terrible to think of how nice I treated her; not because I felt like I had to or felt bad, but because it was the "right thing to do." I included her in everything, introduced her to all my friends, and for what? .. to get stabbed in the back. Since I've broken off our friendship, I totally agree that a million pounds got lifted off of my shoulders, and I love it.

Eleventh Assignment

Well, I'm not going to say that I didn't learn anything from this class, or that I havn't become a better writer from it. Anytime I'm in a class writing during the school year I feel that I accomplish more then the year before; mainly because over the summer I think we tend to loose brain cells, and the parts of our brains exercised for learning (school work) goes to sleep for a bit causing us to forget how to do things we learned in our previous years of schooling. So what I'm trying to say is that a lot of this semester has been a review for me, but it was important because it went deeply in depth to bringing out writing skills I've never noticed. Also, I think when it comes to writing paragraphs and determining what is and isn't needed I have a slightly higher level of thinking. All in all, I enjoyed being in this class these past few weeks, and so far, I don't think there is anything I need help with at the moment.

Tenth Assignment

Dear Santa,

I have been a good girl this year. Yes, my heart has been broken a few times, and some "faces" have been broken in return because of it ( which I had no part in whatsoever ) but I think it's about time I wished for my dream man for christmas. If it's possible, I ask, that my dream man be some what tall with dark hair, tan skin, caribbean blue eyes, and big muscles =), as well as a personality to die for.
Secondly on my list, I would like a new car with ZERO miles. If I keep mine any longer, in a few months it's bound to reach (literally) 300,000 miles and just coast off a cliff. I would prefer a black Infinity G37, with tints, and 24 inch black & chrome rims.
Lastly, for christmas, I ask to be sent away for a month to Cancun, Mexico. It's just too cold lately, and it would be nice to escape to a suite with an ocean view and 90 degree weather to wake up to everyday.


As always, the cold glass of milk and warm chocolate chip cookies will be left on the coffee table infront of the fireplace.

Sincerely,
Lauren